okay, keeping two blogs was just too much work, so i decided to just keep my livejournal one. i liked the background choices better. This site has like, four choices. 

you can find it at desertwanderer.livejournal.com. You can only leave a comment if you have a livejournal account, though. Sorry.

baptisms

i went and did baptisms with mykle tonight at the provo temple. it was really crowded, it seemed to me. it was the first time i've ever been inside that temple; i've always admired the outside, because it looks like a fountain. mykle said he read somewhere that it's supposed to look like a pillar of fire. fire, water, either way, it's beautiful.

the fountains in front are so pretty. one of them the water would go very low, and then gradually shoot upwards about two feet higher, moving up and down as you watch it. i liked that.

i learned something new about myself tonight. when i went to the LA temple in california every week last fall/winter, i always HATED it when people would talk at the temple. it drove me crazy! i just wanted everyone to be completely silent, unless they were baptizing or confirming, anything else just killed the spirit for me. i was way tense.

mykle, as you know, likes to talk. so it should come as no surprise to me that he would talk in the temple. at first it bothered me, but after awhile, i began to relax. and i realized that really, there is nothing wrong with talking in the temple, as long as it is in a courteous whisper and the things you are saying draw the spirit closer to you. and i know you're thinking that i just changed my mind because it's mykle and mykle can do no wrong. but that's not true, because i got mad at him just tonight. i know he's not perfect, and i'm glad. perfection is intimidating. i liked talking to him in the temple, and having someone to hold my hand while we waited for our turn to get in the water. there was such a nice, peaceful feeling there, and it's lingered with me even after we left.

the provo temple is so beautiful. they have this massive portrait of jesus and john the baptist in the water as you descend the steps to the baptismal font. that's one of my favorite paintings of christ. my favorite part tonight was when we got into the water, and i looked up and saw these enormous mirrors all up and down the wall in front of us and the wall behind us, and i could see me standing there with mykle holding my wrist, going on forever into infinity. blurry, but beautiful. (i had my glasses off)

i like that in the provo temple, there are always enough people so that you don't have to call and make appointments. everyone does three names, and it was set up so that mykle got to baptize me, no problem. i liked him baptizing me. it felt real.

Saturday Sibling Dinner

saturday sibling dinner was the best one ever!

i brought mykle with me, and i was really excited going into it to see how kate and joe would like him. i had this feeling that joe would get along with him really well and kate would think he's nice but kind of weird. i have no idea if mykle was nervous or not; if he was, he sure didn't show it. unless he did show it and i just couldn't tell because i don't know what it looks like when he's nervous. whatever.

he and joe really hit it off. i have never had any of my friends or boyfriends get along so well with joe before. i mean, they always got along, but the way mykle and joe were talking, it just seemed like they could be friends even if i wasn't in the picture. they are so alike!! kind of scary, actually... i never thought i'd date a boy who's like my BROTHER!

kate and danny were so funny. i can't even remember half the things they said at dinner, but i was laughing the whole time. afterwards, we watched Howl's Moving Castle, which mykle brought with him. he had read the book before and was explaining what was going on during the movie; i had to keep telling him to be quiet! joe wants to read the book now.

i really liked the movie. i'd never seen it before, and the animation was very well-done. i especially liked calcipher, the fire demon, and the wheezing dog. they were so cute! whenever the dog came on the screen, joe and kate and danny would start wheezing along with him, which drove mykle crazy! it was pretty hilarious.

the funniest part of the entire evening was when joe had just left, and i said something along the lines of "poor joe, i'll bet he wishes he had a girl." and danny said "well, so did the prince!" referring to the ending of the movie when the prince gets unenchanted and tells sophie "you're my true love!" and she's already in love with howl, so the prince ends up alone. maybe you had to be there.

kate loved mykle. she thought he was really cool. i knew they'd adore him. he's just such a likeable guy, you know?

i have library fines again. oh well.

i feel pretty today:)

so my sister got engaged yesterday. wow! i always knew she'd be the first one. the wedding will probably be may 24th, in the boston temple. that SUCKS that i won't be able to see it. why can't nineteen-almost-twenty-year-old women who aren't married and haven't served missions go through the temple?? there's probably a really good reason for it. i just feel like whining.

yesterday i ate dinner at mykle's house. dude, his family is hilarious! we had lots of fun playing scrabble afterwards; mykle and i were a team and we won. but of course, that was to be expected. i always win at scrabble. it sounds snotty, i know, but it is one of the few things i am just really good at. useful, i know. NOT.

i had a cheese sandwich for lunch today. i have no idea why i just wrote that.

here are some drawings i did recently:

the is the christmas vacation series continued.

this is what i drew today.
this is how mykle makes me feel<33

pictures of us

 

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i can't sleep. i'm too in love!!

i know i'm going to regret this later when i'm exhausted and can't keep my eyes open at dinner tonight. but how is a girl supposed to sleep when she's going half insane over some boy??

guesswhatguesswhatguesswhat???!! we're going out now! mykle is my boyfriend!!! i haven't had a boyfriend since viktor, and that was when i was barely seventeen. it was totally worth the wait, too.

he FINALLY kissed me, and i felt like dying! i think i'm going to die now just thinking about it. i told him i was going to die, and he asked me not to, please, because that would be tragic. it's true. but still.

oh my gosh, all this recovery shit and incredibly hard work i've done over the past three or four years has been TOTALLY WORTH IT!!! mykle would not like me if i were sick, and i wouldn't be in a position to pay attention to anyone but myself. recovery ROCKS!!! i highly recommend it to anyone with an eating disorder.

I was seriously going out of my mind at his house yesterday. he still hadn't kissed me; he knew i wanted him to, but he kept waiting for some reason. then when we were at my house and i was getting stuff for hot chocolate, i stepped forward and kind of buried my head in his neck. i could stay there forever, doing nothing else for the rest of my life but breathing in his smell. he can sense this and thinks it is funny. we sat down on the couch and were cuddling for ages, and i don't know if i've ever been happier. not in this way at least. i was making rows of kisses on his cheek and neck when he finally moved his head and kissed me on the lips. i am only the second girl he's ever kissed, which surprised me because he's had so many girlfriends before. i'm the opposite; kissed a lot, dated only one or two guys. not nearly as honorable, in my opinion, but oh well.

mykle is a fabulous kisser. at one point he asked me a question, and i couldn't think at ALL! it was funny! it took me a minute to summon enough brain activity to process what he asked. i like that he is always thinking and there are never awkward pauses with him because he loves to talk. hahahahahaha, that sounds pretty hilarious, but it's true! he's totally ADD; we'll be kissing and he'll start laughing because he thought of some funny, random thing. it's entertaining and keeps things from ever getting boring.

i could barely stand to let him go. i really think i could just sit and kiss mykle forever, with occasional bathroom breaks. and maybe food and showers. other than that, i'd like nothing better than to bury my face in his neck and kiss him all over. i literally melt when i'm with him. i thought i must be the only one who felt that way until i kissed him and he just dissolved. so i guess i drive him just as crazy as he does me. although he's probably able to sleep right now while i'm stuck awake and giddy like this. well, i had insomnia issues before this too, so that might have something to do with it.

there was one point yesterday when we were at school and he was working. He was watching me from a few yards away behind the counter, when i had this impulse to look up at him. i saw him watching me and i broke out into this goofy smile, and he winked at me. it was so cute. oh geez, i am head over heels for this guy...

i'm so happy he's a nice mormon boy. not only because he has the priesthood and we have a lot more in common because of the church, but also because it makes it so much easier for me not to cross the line. i have a really bad history of letting guys push me over that stupid line, and now it's great because i know mykle would never do that. he's such a good person. i love when he lets me sit there and cover his face with kisses. i love making him melt the way he does to me so easily. i loved when he pulled my hair out of it's ponytail to play with it, that was so cute. i love when i feel his warm breath in my ear, or listening to the way his voice echoes when i rest my head on his chest as he talks. i love how he'll just say exactly what he's thinking without worrying if it's embarrassing or not, like when he told me on our first date why he asked me out, or when he said he's always had a thing for girls with short hair. i love his boy-scent, and how when i get close enough to smell him i just want to die. i'm glad he wasn't afraid to cuddle with me in front of his family. i like his family. his dad is hilarious! 

i love when he catches me completely off-guard. the other night, i was in the middle of explaining something when he just interrupted me and said "your hair is pretty," and i almost dropped the pot i was holding. i forgot everything i was saying and just stared at him. he thought that was funny. or like when we were at his house and i was talking and he leaned forward and kissed my forehead. i couldn't remember anything i'd been saying and just kind of sighed and leaned my head against his chest.

oh my gosh, i sound so mushy talking about all this! i must be crazy about this guy if he's able to make me get all cheesy like this! he has this way of saying things sometimes that makes me want to fall over myself kissing him. crap, i'm doing it again! what is WRONG with me?? when did i decide to up and give my heart away? i cannot even believe i just wrote that last sentence, it is so corny. wow, i need to just stop typing before i completely humiliate myself...

i'm in love!